As we begin our journey on the spiritual path, we confront a host of suppressed emotions, thoughts and feelings. It is vital to uncover them and give them the space to surface and be brought into the light of awareness. Spending time with fear, depression, anxiety etc. helps us understand their nature; but make no mistake it’s not going to change them. At some point we must let them grow up and leave the house of our own heart and begin to break up with our trauma by being firm and saying enough, while letting them be on the simple level of our humanity.
Spiritual awakening is like falling in love. If you fall in love with the very source of creation you inadvertently fall in love with all its expressions. Then you don’t have to try and love the diversities of life, your husband and wife, your job, anxieties and fears etc; which is impossible anyway. Rather, your love for the inner self in all things allows for one to bypass all the details of form. Then life is experienced as only love interacting with love.
Whatever form life may be taking around you whether internally as thoughts and emotions or externally as sense experience, draw the divine nectar from them by remaining still without grasping. You will begin to see that though on the surface life may appear harsh; within all things is the yolk of eternity that allows for the personal connection with God in spite of the superficial form.
The entire universe is held in place by a power that we intuit to be real. Surely our life is included in this, and at some point we are going to have to accept this force as sovereign. Give up the doubt my friends and the false thinking that peace and harmony means a pain-free and comfortable existence with no place for the spectrum of our humanity.
Recognize that you are an ego and do not pretend to have wings by using non-duality jargon. Start with the truth and be honest: You feel separated and are not rock solid about your relationship to death. We oscillate between feeling sure and feeling completely uncertain according to mind/body conditions. Therefore if you are ready, get serious about reconciling your relationship with the unknown; which is God, which is life, and has the power alone to reveal the secrets of the cosmos. If you feel this is for you, it is time to put all your chips in and say this aloud:
I am not here to stand but to kneel.
I am not here to be fulfilled but emptied.
I am not here to begin but to end.
I am not here to gain but to lose.
I am not here to take but to serve:
You can have me.
Awakening can be defined as a fundamental transformation or dissolution of the exclusive “me” that has its identity in “I am the body and mind,” to a non-exclusive awareness that simultaneously sees itself in all things, times and places without a second of differentiation. This incorporates your particular body and personality, which becomes energized and made bright by the force of unimpeded grace that now flows freely in every aspect of your life.
Awakening does not mean the denial or manipulation of mind/body phenomenon. On the contrary, it means a final release of the obsession to control them. A surrender so profound, all that is left is a living vessel brimming with the glow of the Unknown.