There are three main dispositions that establish a primary place in the mind, and must be overcome in order to reveal one’s Eternal Nature. They are as follows:
The first disposition is wrong thinking due to distrust which thwarts a person from total surrender. This group contains some of the best-learned seekers. These seekers are the ones who quote scripture, send you daily emails of holy sayings; and are always trying to lead others to what they refuse to have faith in them self (they are quick to hand you a book). They have many suspicions, and fail due to their lack of trust, often going back to childhood or an earlier relationship.Another set that falls in this group are those seekers who follow a teaching that embraces the opposites (mainly one that says there is an opposing force to the Absolute or God). Their distrust lies in the conviction that there is an “evil” force always looking to destroy them. They seem hypocritical on the outside due the conflicting duality on the inside. They fight a battle to keep “left” while the “right” demands integration.
This first disposition is overcome with intense devotion that constitutes a willingness to die for It; which overcomes the deep distrust. This means letting go of their “spiritual ego;” the entity who attends every satsang, reads every book, fills their house with statues and pictures etc., and gives the illusion that you can keep the ego as long as it looks “spiritual.” It must all be given up and finally exposed.
As for the hypocrite, they must continue to swing on the pendulum until finally questioning their “spiritual ego” that fights a “spiritual battle.” Which only allows ego to subsist.
The second disposition is the inability to understand due to a much cluttered mind. This group cannot grasp the teaching because the mind is so bombarded with the fruits of their past actions. There simply is not enough room for inquiry and for the subtlety of awareness to creep in.
This second disposition can only be overcome by Divine Grace; which can be sudden and violent, or subtle and drawn out over time, depending on how heavy or light the dispositions. This Grace is brought down by the intense longing and willingness to have that clutter removed by a symbolic all powerful Lord.
The third disposition is the most common, consisting of persons who are filled with desire and always preoccupied with working towards an end. There is an obsession to “be someone,” the hero, the recognized, and successful: Fulfillment of a mental image in one’s own mind and the minds of others; as well as society. There is a strong sense of duty, and “life is what you make it.” This is accompanied by the desire to experience sense pleasure through the body as a reward for their efforts; whether “spiritual” or not. It is quite common to get addicted to the spiritual seeking itself.
This third disposition must be dealt with by dispassion, associating with the learned, inquiry, and developing a strong internal aversion towards sense pleasure and outward validation. There must be a strengthening of the will to allow the “me” to be unfulfilled, humiliated, and without experience. Which leads to the discovery of complete aloneness and solitude on the inside; a concentrated mind that sees the futility in the fulfillment of temporary gratification.
Most aspirants are a combination of all three. The most important qualification to overcome these three dispositions is an intense unwavering perseverance. One that is so intense that it appears self-destructive, because that is the goal. A complete annihilation of the conceptual-self that has your first name as its roots.