Anxiety is the ego losing its foothold. Anyone that suffers from anxiety will tell you that there is a detaching away from a sense of “me.” The body responds to the ego’s panic, and it becomes a loop of mind-body reaction that keeps the fight or flight response active.
When we think of that word anxiety, we think of how we feel. Clearly, how we feel is a mind-body based phenomenon.
Body-sweating, rapid heart rate, numbness, and many other physical symptoms.
Mind-Racing thoughts, panic, intense fear.
There are many degrees of anxiety, from a general anxiety that seems causeless, anxiety that has a cause as worrying; to extreme panic attacks that overwhelm the entire mind-body organism.
Anxiety offers a tremendous opportunity as far as spiritual growth is concerned, because it forces the aspirant out of a comfort zone. The ego is never allowed to fully sink into unconsciousness, as it is constantly aware of uncertainty. Bodies that suffer from general anxiety are pushed into a crisis seemingly every day. This crisis in consciousness sets up the seeker to focus their intention.
They have two options for that intention:
1. Stay identified with the mind and body, and so seek to manipulate them through medication, talking oneself down (convincing the ego that it will be okay. It has been worse, attaching to like minded groups etc.). Trying to regain control and preserve a sense of identity as a human being. A lot of people believe they are “losing their mind” and physically dying during intense anxiety.
2. Lose your mind and die. This crisis actually offers the spiritual aspirant the opportunity to give up huge swaths of the ego and body identification. Though it must be intended. It is the hardest thing that an individual can intend-to give up the mechanism that seeks to preserve the mind and body, and sustain a sense of an individual me through them.
If one turns away from this power that preserves, it is possible to come in contact with the ground from which mind and body spring. Sounds a lot like death, right? You must be willing to die for it; and make that your intention; to force the ego into the purifying flames of reality, consciousness, right now-therefore merging it with it’s source.
To completely intend to give up the mind and body in the midst of this crisis in consciousness, and this crisis in body; is the highest act of devotion and surrender; and leads to a metamorphosis. It can be done if that is what you want and trust that it is possible by the evidence of this teaching.
Remain physically still in spite of the intense feeling to get up and panic.
Here are some mantras that will keep the intention in the moment of crisis:
“Wait, just wait a sec.”
“I am ready to die if that is what it is going to take.”
“Let the heart explode then. I am not going to save you.”
“ Goodbye. Your first name____. It’s your time to die. Nope sorry.”
“You can have Me. I give up. It’s over.” “Today we die.”