First, if you have to “believe” in something than it cannot be deemed true. If you have a headache you have a headache whether you believe it or not-it simply is in spite of the ideas or opinions surrounding it. This “isness” can only be found in Reality; and Reality is always right now in spite of thought. If we wanted to debate “Does God exist, what is Reality” then we can spend our whole life exploring the field of thought, without ever coming in contact with Reality.
You said you wanted “truth” and not mere symbols of it. For instance, you can step in the ocean and say, “that’s cold!” Isn’t that truth? The actual experience of the ocean is true, not the symbolic thoughtful interpretation, “that’s cold.” Do you see the difference? Reality or truth does not require thought. In fact, Reality exists in spite of the ideas surrounding it-you are in the ocean regardless of what you think about the experience. Words are used later to communicate and point to the experience, but obviously cannot be the Reality.
Now, if someone wanted to find out if there is an all pervasive cause that is present at all times, places, and things; surely one would have to actually come in contact with It. The prerequisite is dropping the very mechanism that creates the imaginary reality based on opinion, belief, like and dislike, partialities, descriptions, experiences, and mental positions. There would have to be a complete cessation of identity within the field of thought. Therefore, identifying as an Atheist, Christian, or any other conceptual form is imaginary and apart from the reality that stands in and of itself without the need for an outside aide to exist and perceive it-in this case a proclaimer of truth.
Hence, to actually experience Reality, God, and Love, whatever you want to call it; is to actually experience your own conceptual death-that imaginary me that lives in a separate reality based solely on thought and identification with the body. Surely, the question “Who am I in spite of thought and the body?” turns the mechanism of thought on itself destroying the imagination-revealing the One Reality or Final Cause. Unfortunately, I cannot show you this truth, but can only use concepts to point to the non-conceptual. It is a path where one must be willing to die for it as they step off the foothold of everything they “know.”